30 Day Challlenge: Day 7

Day 7: A picture of your most treasured item

This is my memory bear. It is VERY special to me. June 11, 2005 that John Puskas was taken from this world. He was my Gramps and best friend. He had prostate cancer and there was nothing that the doctors could do. I miss him all the time. My Nana had this bear made for me when she lived in Bentonville, Arkansas by this elderly woman. The bear is made out of one of my Gramps' favorite golf shirts. Idk if you can see but it has golf tees on it. And a golf hat and a golf tee in his hand. My Gramps' love was golf. I love this item because it's almost like he is still around. He's my guardian angel through my memory bear :) it's the only excuse I have for being 20 years old and still sleeping with a teddy bear lol.

I wrote this for him when I was coping:

You were so full of life
Always smiling and carefree
Life loved you being a part of it
And I loved you being a part of me
You could make anyone laugh
If they were having a bad day
No matter how sad I was
You could take the hurt away
Nothing could ever stop you
Or even make you fall
You were ready to take on the world
Ready to do it all
But God decided he needed you
So from this world you left
But you took a piece of all of us
Our hearts are what you kept
Your seat is now empty
And its hard not to see your face
But please always know this
No one will ever take your place
You left without a warning
Not even saying goodbye
And I can't seem to stop
Asking the question why
Nothing will ever be the same
The halls are empty without your laughter
But I know you're up in heaven
Watching over us and looking after
I didn't see this coming
It hit me by surprise
And when you left this world
 A small part of us died
Your smile could brighten anyone's day
No matter what they were going through
And I know everyday for the rest of my life
I will be missing you..

This is him on a shirt that my Nana got made for me :)


I wish I could have had more time with him. I remember waking up at 3 or 4 in the morning with him. I was the only one that would wake up to watch Nascar together lol. I'm glad he introduced me to it, I LOVE Nascar! I want so much to be able to say my last words to him. But I can wait till it's my time to join him. See u at the gates gramps, I love you!


--peace out, girl scout--